So did you figure out I remembered to take a picture? Do you like having pictures of yourself taken? It is not one of my most favorite things in the world for sure. The idea of taking this picture even made me cringe. I have to admit that it has turned itself around from a feeling of dread to my celebration for the week. I thought about why I stopped taking pictures and it goes back to the beginning of the plateau. I did not really see any reason to take a photo of myself when it was the same old me from before. The mental stuff always plays a big part in it too, do you ever dissect yourself in a photo until you hate it so much you hit delete? I promised myself I would not delete the photo, plus there was the whole thing I said about posting one hanging over me! This means I have to just accept it as it is and send it in. This actually went from feeling like torture to being a bit of a relief! Here it is — total proof that I still look the same on the outside. While it is scary and disappointing I also have to look at it as my next new beginning. People that have known me for a while will be amazed at other non-weight changes in the photo (I think) and I see someone who is healthy on the inside and working really hard to get the insides to show on the outside. So I am celebrating the liberation of posting a photo in spite of the lack of obvious physical change.
So if the picture taking thing is freaking you out a bit, suck it up, maybe suck it in if it makes you feel better...lol...and have at it. You are working toward being healthy and healthy people are always beautiful!!
— Holly
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