Well I’m starting to feel like a broken record, my celebration is still seeking out help. I was still either staying the same or gaining weight the last few weeks in spite of all the extra working out and careful, purposeful eating. When I am not good at something I want to do, it makes me want to come at it from every angle I can possibly find until I am good at it. So when I showed a gain this week I made an appointment with the doctor to see if she could help figure out what is holding me back. Sure enough, the stubborn weight, daily headaches, increased hair loss and a few other things indicated that my PCOS is escalating. This is something I will have to battle for the rest of my life so we discussed the next step to controlling it. My usual meds no longer can control it on their own so a new one was added to better control the insulin-resistance symptom. The insulin resistance snowballs into a lot of other things including weight gain in spite of all the healthy food choices and exercise.
She felt that I should notice a difference in energy and weight within a few weeks at most. I am disappointed these days when I am working so hard to be healthy and it is not translating into a physical difference, as I know that is how others can gage change. Logically a plateau is normal but the gain is not. Hopefully this is the final piece of the puzzle and I can find a more well-rounded success.
In anticipation of fulfilling every part of my goal of being a healthy mom, I have scheduled that trip with my family to Six Flags. We will be going to Texas the last week of May and I am going to have a great time walking the entire park without getting winded and just more fully enjoying life in general.
If things are not going the way you want them to, step back and figure out why. If I can struggle through this in spite of running into what feels like a brick wall face first for the last four months and still keep going, so can you. When has anything good in life ever come easy? We just have to keep thinking that it will pay off, it will! So chins up my friends and let’s keep marching to our healthy tune no matter what.
— Holly
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